If You Don't Know, Now You Know...

Just a quick fact -- insomnia will ALWAYS get the best of you. Tis why I'm here blogging at 2:10 AM. There are a few things I'd like you all to know about me. Things that if you know me inside and out...you'd obviously already know. But I'm not sure if anyone quite gets it yet.

For starters, I am in deep, deep love with love. Yet it goes unrequited.
I enjoy solving everyone elses problems before my own. Just so I can feel like mine are nonexistent.
I lost a close friend because of that, I guess some things are truly meant for me NOT to be a part of. Sorry CV.
I want what I can't have about 95% of the time. Plenty of us probably have that in common.
The other 5% percent is what I should want but am too blind to realize.
I plan on traveling the world one day. Specific spots such as the Fiji Islands and Paris (at night) are places I'd like to spend with a beloved. The rest of the world is to be enjoyed with a large group.
Sunsets are my escape. A reminder that it's time to put the day's troubles away and settle.
I love the holidays...all the lights...the songs...preparations...colors...the cheer...the togetherness.
I hate the holidays...all the shopping...the wrap that's going to be ripped apart anyway...the work...the togetherness just because of gifts...the goodbyes.
I have ZERO patience. Yet I'm always waiting.
If I wrote you a love letter, you might just marry me or at least pay me to write a similar letter for your beloved.
I probably, most likely, will not look for you a third time if you let me down the first two. But I will (unfortunately) feel some type of way but just keep it to myself.
I very rarely have the big enough balls to just come out with all my feelings. That's just because while I'm talking I get embarrassed and decide some things are maybe really that stupid.
When I say I love you, 99.9% of the time - it's all true. That .1% is just the part of me that knows you might just let me down but I will give you my heart anyway.
College made me realize how much I really love my mom and dad. It's sad but it's crazy how happy it makes me to hear their voices on the phone.
My nieces and nephews make me feel role modelesque - but I'm far from it.
My friends are the Alphas and the Omegas.

This is me. If I missed any, do add them in. The End. ♥