I took my first biology exam today at 7:30 a.m.. Was not at all what I expected, fairly simple and I barely studied -- but maybe I shouldn't start gloating just yet. I've been singing a Chris Brown song all day, just the same line over and over -- "I want to be where you are..."; you might remember if from the song "Yo (Excuse Me)" -- early Chris Breezy. I haven't quite figured out why it's been heavy on my mind or to whom its relating to but honestly I think it's my friends. Not just the ones across the bridge, but the ones who are farther up north.
It's been a day of pure drowsiness and reminiscing. I guess it goes for a lot of us, if not all, but I really just miss my crew. We may not all run in the same circles, but when we all got together at my awesome get-togethers, some amazing memories were made. In this new chapter of life, we have even more memories to make but I just wish I could make them now rather than later. Clearly, I can't wait till Winter Break, not only because I get to see the pieces of my heart but also because I get to start fresh all over again, at a place I'd actually like to be in. I'm glad for all my friends who are where they dreamed of being and if not dreamed then at least WANTED to be in. As for the rest of us, just gotta keep putting in work to achieve those dreams. Thank God I'm so close to a few of my crew, if I couldn't see them this often I'd def be some type of wreck.
Oh and by the way, Constance and I are attending the Fame Kills Tour on January 3rd, 2010.
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter won't mind...- Dr. Seuss."
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Mazel Tov.
This weekend was thus far one of the best. I may not have gotten inebriated the way I wanted to but best believe I had a lot of fun. Friday night went to shit because...well yeah, just did. Saturday night was relatively eventful. Scored a Strawberry Frap ♥ from my "flow" (he likes to think he is haha, I hope he reads this) and suffered minor heartbreak on the train, I'll get into that in a second. I got to see one of my bestGIRLfriends, Natalee at Columbia. We had dinner at a great Japanese Restuarant with our hilarious friend Amanda from Fairfield U. (she's awesome no lie) and then got hooked up at PinkBerry. Later I met some new people at CU and was given a bottle O_O -- saving that for next week ! I took myself to NYU and spent the night with my Conn ♥. Great night -- knocked at 6:30 am., need I say more ?
So about that heartbreak..., I'm never going to stop kicking myself. So two stops after I get on the 2 train this beautiful piece of man gets on the train. He had a lip piercing and a eyebrow piercing -- I don't usually like my dudes to have piercings other than his ears and/or tongue but God Damn. So anyway he sits across from me and we have more than a few moments of eye contact and smiles. Train hits 96th and its time to transfer. Like destiny, he gets off to transfer to the 1 as am I :D ! Again, on the platform, more eye contact and what not. Train comes, I get in first and homeboy sits right next to me. You already know my ass was gassed as hell. So I'm trying to maintain my cool, probably expecting too much, just waiting for some conversation. It doesn't happen anytime soon so I attempt to do the whole "I'm-getting-a-piece-of-gum-deep-in-my-bag-oh, sorry-cutie-I-hit-you." My retarded arm doesn't even reach him, we hit 116th, quick smile as I walk out and I'm gone. -_-
be back soon hunny dips.
"you mad at me cause your paper needs to get it's mothafuckin' weight up"
So about that heartbreak..., I'm never going to stop kicking myself. So two stops after I get on the 2 train this beautiful piece of man gets on the train. He had a lip piercing and a eyebrow piercing -- I don't usually like my dudes to have piercings other than his ears and/or tongue but God Damn. So anyway he sits across from me and we have more than a few moments of eye contact and smiles. Train hits 96th and its time to transfer. Like destiny, he gets off to transfer to the 1 as am I :D ! Again, on the platform, more eye contact and what not. Train comes, I get in first and homeboy sits right next to me. You already know my ass was gassed as hell. So I'm trying to maintain my cool, probably expecting too much, just waiting for some conversation. It doesn't happen anytime soon so I attempt to do the whole "I'm-getting-a-piece-of-gum-deep-in-my-bag-oh, sorry-cutie-I-hit-you." My retarded arm doesn't even reach him, we hit 116th, quick smile as I walk out and I'm gone. -_-
be back soon hunny dips.
"you mad at me cause your paper needs to get it's mothafuckin' weight up"
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Can't Tell Me Nothin' !
Here's to another uneventful Thirsty Thursday for Ashley at college -__-. I'm home all weekend and I'm finally over this cold so I def WILL BE HAVING MINE ! Can't wait till January..ugh, anyway. So this weekend should be good (hopefully), rounding up my crew of boys (missing some) for some fun illegal activities hahaha. Check for that !!
The future is so damn uncertain. But for the very curious, there's palm readers and psychics -- if you believe in that stuff. You shelf over hard earned cash to basically hear what you yourself tell them, only reworded. Ain't that somethin' ? I wish I knew what was in store, instead of imagining and believing those ideas. I'm not big on surprises, but I guess they aren't too bad if you really think about it. But I wonder, if we knew what was coming before it came, would the actions we take cause everything to change ? Or do we just take the roads that will lead us to those events purposely ? Does that leave room for mistakes and learning from said mistakes ? I guess we'll all just have to live life and see.
Life 's an adventure, a long journey filled with wild obstacles -- unique to each human. Cause even if we connect with another because of similar experiences, they are never quite the same. But back to the future (haha ??), because I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm always wondering who my next heartbreak is going to be. A little pessimistic to think it'll end up that way, but it's some type of armor in this crazy world. But as for that matter, I'll been pretty chill. I'm not really up to my usual antics of prospecting* cause I feel I'm not in the right mind set. There's some housekeeping I gotta do within me before I go jump out the window. Time to get my mackin' back in perspective. Got some soul searching to do.
So I'm quite hype for this weekend, but watch me up doing nothing. Check for it sometime this weekend hunnies ♥
"sky might be falling but remember you can fly highhh..."
The future is so damn uncertain. But for the very curious, there's palm readers and psychics -- if you believe in that stuff. You shelf over hard earned cash to basically hear what you yourself tell them, only reworded. Ain't that somethin' ? I wish I knew what was in store, instead of imagining and believing those ideas. I'm not big on surprises, but I guess they aren't too bad if you really think about it. But I wonder, if we knew what was coming before it came, would the actions we take cause everything to change ? Or do we just take the roads that will lead us to those events purposely ? Does that leave room for mistakes and learning from said mistakes ? I guess we'll all just have to live life and see.
Life 's an adventure, a long journey filled with wild obstacles -- unique to each human. Cause even if we connect with another because of similar experiences, they are never quite the same. But back to the future (haha ??), because I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm always wondering who my next heartbreak is going to be. A little pessimistic to think it'll end up that way, but it's some type of armor in this crazy world. But as for that matter, I'll been pretty chill. I'm not really up to my usual antics of prospecting* cause I feel I'm not in the right mind set. There's some housekeeping I gotta do within me before I go jump out the window. Time to get my mackin' back in perspective. Got some soul searching to do.
So I'm quite hype for this weekend, but watch me up doing nothing. Check for it sometime this weekend hunnies ♥
"sky might be falling but remember you can fly highhh..."
All Alerts Off.
So, I'll give this another shot. Let's be generic -- allow me to reintroduce myself...
My name's Ashley, I'm eighteen and a college student. I'm not where I want to be but it's where I'm at so until January, I'll deal. I'm a big time drama mama and I will ALWAYS find something to complain about. Due to recent events in my life, I've desperately needed an outlet to speak my mind. Yeah, there're always my best friends, but I'm not trying to talk their faces off.
I had a bootleg blog going on this summer. I made one cause I figured I could get out my mind's troubles that way but I just began to get discouraged and eventually got lazy. I don't expect to be all popular with this, like I said I need an outlet. Not to kiss my ass or anything, I have some interesting things to say, maybe I can inspire like many have done to me. Shouts to my faves on this: Emanuel (http://soonyoullunderstand.blogspot.com) & Constance (http://nonconnformist.blogspot.com).
NOW FOR THE EMOTIONAL SPILL !!
All alerts off; an explanation. Other than being the sound profile my blackberry (♥) is on, it's also how I feel about some people. Kind of like they have me on that setting. I'm a girl, don't let it come as a surprise that I love attention. Not too much nor too little -- just enough. I feel as though some loved ones who are a major part of me have been ... kind of absent. But hey, college changes people. We won't know if it's for best or worst until we evaluate our own changes. I slipped up and let my inner crybaby overreact. I'm not in the position right now to dismiss people from my life. This past weekend I lost it and more or less cut an important part of my life out. I have my major reasons for having done so, most of the female population would agree with me on them and a select few emotional fellas I know would too. Anyway, in wanting to make the other party feel like a dick-enormous, I'm the mandingo -_-. I was jammin' to my Bachata when I started to really feel it...I miss my friend. But fortunately for me, my long lost dominican cousin George was able to get things back in perspective for me. I tend to put myself down...over and over again. Knowing that the other person owes me a real apology, I still find that in the end I caused the problem in the first place. Basically, I gotta grow up and build the wall I've been trying to protect my whole life. So here's the first brick, fuck crying -- let allergies be the only reason I tear up.
Till tomorrow night babies <3
"take your time when liking a guy; cause if he sense your feelings too intense -- it's pimp or die."
My name's Ashley, I'm eighteen and a college student. I'm not where I want to be but it's where I'm at so until January, I'll deal. I'm a big time drama mama and I will ALWAYS find something to complain about. Due to recent events in my life, I've desperately needed an outlet to speak my mind. Yeah, there're always my best friends, but I'm not trying to talk their faces off.
I had a bootleg blog going on this summer. I made one cause I figured I could get out my mind's troubles that way but I just began to get discouraged and eventually got lazy. I don't expect to be all popular with this, like I said I need an outlet. Not to kiss my ass or anything, I have some interesting things to say, maybe I can inspire like many have done to me. Shouts to my faves on this: Emanuel (http://soonyoullunderstand.blogspot.com) & Constance (http://nonconnformist.blogspot.com).
NOW FOR THE EMOTIONAL SPILL !!
All alerts off; an explanation. Other than being the sound profile my blackberry (♥) is on, it's also how I feel about some people. Kind of like they have me on that setting. I'm a girl, don't let it come as a surprise that I love attention. Not too much nor too little -- just enough. I feel as though some loved ones who are a major part of me have been ... kind of absent. But hey, college changes people. We won't know if it's for best or worst until we evaluate our own changes. I slipped up and let my inner crybaby overreact. I'm not in the position right now to dismiss people from my life. This past weekend I lost it and more or less cut an important part of my life out. I have my major reasons for having done so, most of the female population would agree with me on them and a select few emotional fellas I know would too. Anyway, in wanting to make the other party feel like a dick-enormous, I'm the mandingo -_-. I was jammin' to my Bachata when I started to really feel it...I miss my friend. But fortunately for me, my long lost dominican cousin George was able to get things back in perspective for me. I tend to put myself down...over and over again. Knowing that the other person owes me a real apology, I still find that in the end I caused the problem in the first place. Basically, I gotta grow up and build the wall I've been trying to protect my whole life. So here's the first brick, fuck crying -- let allergies be the only reason I tear up.
Till tomorrow night babies <3
"take your time when liking a guy; cause if he sense your feelings too intense -- it's pimp or die."
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