So, I'll give this another shot. Let's be generic -- allow me to reintroduce myself...
My name's Ashley, I'm eighteen and a college student. I'm not where I want to be but it's where I'm at so until January, I'll deal. I'm a big time drama mama and I will ALWAYS find something to complain about. Due to recent events in my life, I've desperately needed an outlet to speak my mind. Yeah, there're always my best friends, but I'm not trying to talk their faces off.
I had a bootleg blog going on this summer. I made one cause I figured I could get out my mind's troubles that way but I just began to get discouraged and eventually got lazy. I don't expect to be all popular with this, like I said I need an outlet. Not to kiss my ass or anything, I have some interesting things to say, maybe I can inspire like many have done to me. Shouts to my faves on this: Emanuel (http://soonyoullunderstand.blogspot.com) & Constance (http://nonconnformist.blogspot.com).
NOW FOR THE EMOTIONAL SPILL !!
All alerts off; an explanation. Other than being the sound profile my blackberry (♥) is on, it's also how I feel about some people. Kind of like they have me on that setting. I'm a girl, don't let it come as a surprise that I love attention. Not too much nor too little -- just enough. I feel as though some loved ones who are a major part of me have been ... kind of absent. But hey, college changes people. We won't know if it's for best or worst until we evaluate our own changes. I slipped up and let my inner crybaby overreact. I'm not in the position right now to dismiss people from my life. This past weekend I lost it and more or less cut an important part of my life out. I have my major reasons for having done so, most of the female population would agree with me on them and a select few emotional fellas I know would too. Anyway, in wanting to make the other party feel like a dick-enormous, I'm the mandingo -_-. I was jammin' to my Bachata when I started to really feel it...I miss my friend. But fortunately for me, my long lost dominican cousin George was able to get things back in perspective for me. I tend to put myself down...over and over again. Knowing that the other person owes me a real apology, I still find that in the end I caused the problem in the first place. Basically, I gotta grow up and build the wall I've been trying to protect my whole life. So here's the first brick, fuck crying -- let allergies be the only reason I tear up.
Till tomorrow night babies <3
"take your time when liking a guy; cause if he sense your feelings too intense -- it's pimp or die."
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i hope you'll actually stick to this one
ReplyDeletela la love you. thanks for the mention.
ReplyDeletebricks are dangerous ash. you just have to find a way to move on without changing you. you won't be able to tear down what you wanna build to protect yourself- so you have to think about what you want in the future.
TRUST me- you're gonna find it mega hard to even trust another person in the slightest. it's tough- i'm not trying to tell you to be vulnerable cuz that's also a big no-no. just don't let a person have so much to control that they change you.
as time passes, you'll be fine so not to be bitter- you'll appreciate what existed when it existed, and you'll know that you're okay with it being a thing of the past.
you're strong and you have your girls, you'll be just fine =)