Leave a Mark They Can't Erase.

It's been awhile, but here goes. Friday night I realized way more than I bargained for. Every step, every move has a repercussion -- good or bad. I don't really want to go into much detail about that night, although a few already know the deal. Basically, I just had a rush of emotions that have now driven me to a fork in the road. Same God Damn fork I always find myself -_- For one, I owe my parents the biggest apology of my life. I said half of it to my dad...but my mom is always the hardest to get through to. I'm happy I've at least grown up a tad bit - mentally. Sigh.

I know the road I need to take, but I feel like I'm just going to run back to the starting point. But I always do this, I run back to what I already know cause I'm so scared to start brand new. Unfortunately, there's always something wrong with what I run back to. If it was ever anything good, then I really wouldn't have a reason to run back to it. I'm impossible. I'm always the one to give out advice and I'm 98% percent right about what will happen if my advice isn't taken. Too bad I'm never right about my own actions. But back to this road I need to take, it's called moving on. Only problem is, I'm not even sure what I'm moving on from. Blah. I wrote something this weekend, not in ink or on a screen or in blood O_o but I did write some message which will probably never be realized or understood, but that's okay. At the end of the day, it's probably for the best.

Well, there's no concert for me and Conn anymore...DEPRESSING. But to make up for it, we will be looking GLORIOUS on Halloween -- GaGa inspired baby :]
"I want to break up the scene and see you running back to me; cause I feel like taking off -- let me be your supernova before you make the biggest mistake of your life. Give me a chance to get it right."