Heartbreaker.

Remember when I caught your eye
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness;
when our love was over
I was such a mess

I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that's when I knew
there's no turning back
you said you loved me
and I did too
now though it's over
I still love you

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day
I pray to God
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another
you had a lover

And now is gone
I don't know why
I feel like crying
just want to die
I can't look at you
and you know why
no, I tried so hard
to catch your eye

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

Thank you MSTRKRFT for these amazing lyrics. They would've spoken to me a few months...scratch that -- weeks ago. I think the most tiring part of my day isn't the few hours I put in at work or the commute from NJ to NYC rather the energy to know and believe that at the end of the day I don't need anyone; romantically - that is.

I am feeling a tad bit on the bitter end about the prospect of love or a relationship for that matter. Anyone who knows me KNOWS this isn't me in any which way or form. I am the epitome of hopeless romantic. Now relationships make me sick. I much rather be part of something meaningless with absolutely no strings so I could avoid all FEELINGS. Shit...I'm morbid -_- But don't get me wrong. I am still madly, deeply, head-over-heels, GAGA in love with love. It is just that at this precise moment I love my ever so tenacious heart and attitude more than anything. Maybe it's just me becoming one with the season - cold but warm every now and then. But then spring arrives just in time and maybe then I'll stumble upon a knight in shining armor. Def don't have any high hopes for that. I'll pause on this before I get into how the male population is the same AT ANY AGE ! Yikes =X

sayonara babies.